Hello everybody. I got abit burnt at work yesterday. Thank the Lord I brought my visor so it wasn't too bad. Was at Fuchun Sec yesterday, rushed down from school for their robotics camp thingy. Apparently they only had like a dozen of them and they were all malay boys. But I was pretty shocked they turned out to be really obedient and really sweet. Just to sum it all up, water balloons, sun&sweat, chicken rice, newspaper, hantam bolah!, robots and goodbyes. 

I think I needta prioritize. Yeah and focus. Anyhoos, I'll blog again when I get all of the photos from my ahgong's 92nd or 93rd birthday. I honestly lost count. But here's my favourite one!

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Look how we've changed! But I see some similarities still la. Like how we'll always be family. (Cheesy shitz)
Everybody's pretty excited cos we're gonna be uncles and aunties all over again. Another baby in the family due this week. EVERYBODY SAY YEAHHH!

Girl Boy last night I forgot to mention
The way that I feel the way that I'll remember this
When we're this young we have nothing to lose
Just a clock to beat and a hand to choose

 

 

Oh my goodness, it's been motherfucking long since I last blogged! I guess I've been pretty busy like a lil bee. School thrice a week. Karate thrice a week. MT once a week. Spare time is with the clique and my books. Gosh life is pretty regimental. But hey I'm kinda lovin' what I'm doing now. Feels pretty damn awesome and enriching.

Just came back from Michelle's birthday thing and bowling with Dj and Vuisin. My goodness we've not bowled in I think 1month or so. I honestly can't remember. But I think our standard still there la haha. Not to mention I was in a pretty short dress. Bowl also feel a little conscious. Not good.

( TIME FOR SOME RANDOM PICTURES! )

There's been a little something something that's been weighing very heavily on my mind. When I think about if I can't help but feel hurt. If I were someone else, would things been different? I wanna turn back time. I wish I wasn't that foolish. And right now I feel this tension, this awkwardness. And fucking hell I'm hating it to the core. But talking about it now feels so dumb. Oh God I hate this shit. I wanna talk to someone, to you but hell now's not a good time. Argh motherfuck I'm seriously stressed. 

It's been almost 9 months. I'm proud of myself and how I'm holding up. But lately everything's been coming back to me. And I know once again, it's just me. And I've never felt this alone before.

Been feeling pretty lousy the past few days. It's like I came to a sudden realisation that how and what I'm feeling is wrong and I'm trying to find a way to stop myself. At least now there's school so it's a good way to distract myself in the day. But when it's night time, I feel pretty much messed up all the time. I just reread what I typed and I don't think it makes much sense. Whatfuckingever la. If there's a chill pill in this world, I think I would really need one badly. Or if there's a chill pill that comes with 'HEAL ME ALL' properties, I'd like that as well cos I feel a bad throat coming along. 

Muay Thai later. New batch coming in soon, my goodness the club is gonna boom by an extra 100 people. 99 since Dixie ain't coming hahaha. This ain't good, we're running out of space! All of a sudden I've lost the feeling to blog, my throat is seriously pissing me off. I shall go drink some warm water. LIKE RIGHT NOWZ.

FLASHBACK!



LET'S PLAY TENNIS SOON!
AND I NEED A TAN LA.
 

Thanks for the company guys!

Hello all, life has been pretty normal for me. I quit my m1 job yesterday! Didn't wanna waste anymore weekends not having enough rest hahaha. So now my working life revolves just around robotics. Results are coming out either tomorrow or wednesday. Apparently the shit they put on the school portal is not true. Doesn't mean I fulfil everything means I pass everything. In Uncle Lam's words,'IT'S A CONSPIRACY!' Knn man. That means I may not have passed all. I gotta cross all the fingers and toes that I have this time.

Anyhoos I got a new phone 2 days ago! It's so pretttttty. I love it!



Pretty little thing, I already gave it a name.
Jetstar! (Fucking lame I know cos I also have this urge to travel)

Muay Thai has been good. Exercising is good. I intend to seriously start night jogging soon. Maybe after the 7th month I don't like to jog in the afternoon and I can't seem to wake up early anymore despite my constant efforts of being an early riser my whole life.

Another good thing, the amigos have been reactivated! I'm really glad about that. Like what sissy says old friends are still the best! Though I'm really making alot of new ones too, hahaha I'm actually starting to have a social life in SIM. Haha mad happy! Gone will be the days that I just go to lecture and come home. I'm being real random again.

Caught Final Destination 4 yesterday. Sick gruesome gross shit of a movie. Okay no surprise that it's like that, but I hated it ttm man. Thank the Lord it's only like 82 mins. And the last part was fucking funny when (SPOILER ALERT!) the three all died at the same time. Then TADAH! credits were rolling. Best part of the movie man! Hahaha.

Hahaha alright now I gotta go brush my teeth. LOL.

So leave it behind 'cause we have a night to get away
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape


 

Hello loves! Or whoever's reading this shitass eljay of mine. 
I'll be gone for the weekend for Judo MuayThai Camp! SO EXCITED ACTUALLY.
It's raining outside but that ain't gonna damper my spirits!
I'm actually supposed to head out soon but thanks to the weather, gotta wait awhile.
I will be back in one piece by sunday, but something tells me I'm gonna be sleeping the moment I reach home.
First camp since OBS in sec 3. Oh the horror of OBS. I'll never forget what happened.
I shall post a redundant photo.



Ok, I shall go make sure I brought everything!
BYE DIXIE VAL DJ VUISIN HAKIM EVERYBODY! LOVE YOUZ ALLZ.
 

Did everybody have a good national day weekend?
I did.



( Why, Georgia why? )

Hello. Yesterday was one of my more emotional days. I spent it with dear Hakim and Weesin. It's really good to sit down, talk about things that bother us. And it just so happens that all 3 of us are having problems in the same aspect. It was seriously a good heart to heart to heart session. (Hence the title) We all agreed that we actually realise how much we love a certain someone from the day they leave us and when we measure it from the emptiness that's left, the hole that's remained in the heart. Yes, we all agreed the hole is crater-sized. Hahaha so bloody cheesy! 

We agreed that there's really nothing to look forward to anymore. Everyday feels like a chore. There's no excitement, no thrill, no nothing. Feels like ass. Smelly backside man. I don't know about them but for me, this year kinda just flew by. It flew by in a blur. And I ask myself, have I done enough? Is there more I should be doing? I don't think so. If it's meant to be it's meant to be I guess. No point pushing myself and each other to an unwilling direction. I'm definitely a different person after this whole shit. I never felt more mature, more sure of what I want in my life.

I hate talking about all this shit man. Time for a smoke. Goodbye to you losers reading this. (Kidding) Everybody should get twitter! It's really awesome. TWEET TWEET!


Heard about some news that truly saddened me and I'm sure you're not having a good time too.
Take care you.
 

Right now, my 5 best friends mean the most to me now. They know who they are. Haha.
Picnic pictures!



( Feel the L.O.V.E )

Today at work, my boss asked me if I was a virgin. Also I can't help but notice the moustache on my female colleague's face. (She needs to do something about it.) Another colleague can't remember my name. And another one keeps calling me smelly thinking I'm so sweet and nice and I don't mind when inside I feel like slapping her face(just joking I'm not violent). My life is so interesting. Wow. Goodnight.

 

Just when I thought that best friends dixie and val have not been blogging for eons, I just realised I've not blogged for very long as well! I guess I've been pretty busy. Short update on ma life!

I'm a freaking workoholic now working 5 days a week!
From now till Sept,
I'll be working Mon and Wed for robotics (2 hours only!)
Fri, Sat & Sun @ M1Bugis. (16hours a week) Friends come visit me!
Thurs, Muay Thai! Dixie we can spar soon! Just joking.

Gathering with the clique at my hood tmr lol. I miss them, feels like I've not seen them in a week! HAHAHA. Actually I've not seen dixie in a month. That's not good woman. DO YOU HEAR ME?! Hurry reply my msg la walao lol.

Oh yes, I went to Da Vinci exhibition for free! The perks of being a robotics instructor HAHAHAHA. It was really awesome. I've such nice colleagues honestly. My boss has a skinny greyhound called Paris, which according to Alex is a chocolate milk colour. Not grey after all. Hahaha. I've got my first robotics lesson later on, not looking forward to the whole office wear shitzo, I'm too young for that!

Speaking of work, yest at work at M1, I got yelled at by a bangla. WTF. I totally ignored him. My boss told me if they continued to yell, I can choose not to cancel their prepaid. HAHAHA. Which I don't understand why they have so many. (One person can have like 10 prepaid lines) Needless to say, almost all have like the max 10. Fucking troublesome, then one shot they wanna cancel all 10. Annoying people. But it's funny cos my colleagues call them EH BROTHER! Which I just can't force myself to do the same. Hahaha.

P.S: My ad on Singapore Idol is unglam to the max hahaha. Love it.

Take care all, off to rummage for food in this house!
 

I don't know why I'm blogging, I've absolutely nothing to blog about. But I just realised it's already the the last day of June! Half a year gone like that. Ah i recently went on a speedboat! Shall post some pics.

Stupid faces:




Not so stupid faces:




Wind in the hairrr :)

Oh wells, gotta get ready to go out for a movie! Bye all.
Can't wait to meet my softballers soon in July. I miss them all alot.

 

One of my favourite MJ songs since young. The whole egyptian thing was so awesome.
I'm deeply saddened by the news, I mean, everybody grew up listening to him.
Loved the man.
Rest in peace Michael, you'll be missed.

 

I've not had this feeling in weeks. When I have that annoying feeling in me. When i start to think too much and end up getting all scared and insecure. When I think of my life and how I hate every single aspect of it. I don't understand how and why nothing seems to be going well for me. I'm not being dramatic, I'm not trying to be emotional. It seems to me that everything I do just ends up shitty. I fucking ask myself whywhywhy. Why am i that unlucky? Why is life so unfair? And most of all why must I, Melly, always have the shorter end of the stick.

Just great man, my birthday's in 4 days. Yet, I'm not happy at all. Nothing's worth celebrating at all. I hate this shit.

I need you. But it's just me.